Its so crazy how life can change in a blink of an eye. You go from living with your mom and grandma and having rules and chores and curfiews to doing what ever you wanted. You live in such a gaurded place and your thrown in to life and its finally now starting to settel. Its really geting to that point. Where graduations right around the corner and its just now starting to become a reality. It freaks me out! I want to crawl into a little hole and hide. i know that if its hard now, it’ll be hard then. Years from now. And thats what scares me. I always have been the one to just go with the flow and not worry about much but this stuff is freaking me out. Life is scary. But even though its scary, life is good. I’m so blessed. My moi m’s healthy. Shes going back to school, becoming a CNA. I know she’ll be great, she absolutly loves people even though she wont admit it. I couldn’t be more proud of her. I love her and miss her so much. I’m blessed for my friends. I’m finally starting to get that thing where you know the people you’ll talk to often out of high school. And my 5th and 10th high school reunin! My friends are amazing, every last one of them, i’d do anything for. And finally, im blessed for having such an amazing girlfriend. She has been the one pushing me all this way. Pushing me to do school, encouraging me to do what i want and to follow my path. I love this girl so much and i would do anuthing to make her happy. If she didn’t come into my life when she did and we never started dating, i wouldn’t be where i am at right at this point. She is my biggest influinces. But i love that. I trust her. I know she wont stear me wrong and im so blessed that i found a person like that. And although my life is stessful and i have alot on my mind, i still like to take time out to laugh a little. Thats what keeps me sain. Coming home from a long ass day and sitting on my ass shooting the shit with my friends. I will always need that. So. I am happy. Im more happy that you cod posibly imagin. Im just scared. But things will be good. And the future fullfilling.
